Sometimes its hard for me to define what I am able to offer to the world. When i was young i felt i wasn't good at anything, mum always used to say, -every ones good at something,- but i definitely was not, and i coped with that quite happily, until i did a massage course and saw that i was actually good at something!!
After all these years i had found something i could actually say i am good at this and mean it!!This is not supposed to be an ego booster, its just that i have met lots of people in my life and there are plenty of them who also has said the same thing.
For me i was at a stage in my life where i was eager to do something for the world, to be able to offer myself in an effort to do my bit in making the world a little better for me being in it.
That was a long time ago, and I have been exploring different ways of being trying to go deeper and deeper into my authentic self knowing that the clearer i am about myself ,the clearer i can be 'me' in the world- that is the real me- not the one moulded by my lovely family,school,friends and all the other influences i have encountered. All this in an effort to give a deeper meaning to my life which i have always craved .
Anyway, I really try to do this,and to find my very own beliefs and have found that the language of astrology very helpful to enable me to express my deepest self- and have been looking for a way of expressing what i am currently trying to achieve in my work, then came across Dane Rudhars writings of the houses in the horoscope, and lo and behold, there it was! and this is what it said,
...(about 4th house) "......Whether one ever reaches the kind of stability which is found at the core of one's inner being or one is content to find an at least temporary security and base of operation in a solid concrete foundation just below the ground level,the cusp of the 4th house shows the way that destiny,or God, has prepared for you...................'In Depth Psychology'- in the truest meaning of the term there one is seen at a level which he usually seeks to hide from others........it is moreover one which would fill a very great need today, for modern men and women grow ever more insecure as the ancient foundations of which civilization was build are seen as collapsing.........every effort should be made to help people reach their own centers by approaching in a new way the problem of how to find some stable basis from which they may begin to act as dynamic and creative individuals."
This last bit accurately describes what i try to do in my work and what i have to offer.