Affirmation by anon

I draw from my soul my energy
my dormant energy-to erupt and be set free.
Not in internal combustion
but freely given, and released
into the atmosphere.
The passion life fire and gale
and water it, sustain
make real alive and free
the whole of myself
to be.

poem

Then morning came..........gentle breeze rescued from yesterday rested
for a while......bathed in warmth on moss shadowed boulders hidden
beneath giant fronds of healing green
and sighed.

Vapour coiled upwards to the sun safe bliss of nothingness,
through the toughened bows
from roots to the Christmas tree fairy
and further
than changed............to drifting gold

Grew to gold
Enveloped by gold from this other floating coil..........then JOINED!
and so discovered flint of primal fusion
Genesis!

Ancient fingers poked and prodded.....bellowed........blew to birth the tiny golden flame
to orange! to red blaze! in a breath...........
Combustion of fire and air belching from earths core
Archaic compulsions-churning instincts to plutonic fever stew.
Unquenched
Devoured by delirious cauldron force to essence of toad.

Mercurial streams decend...undirected..forming odious sublime monoliths
petrifying moments into crude sculptures
transforming to love and fear.
Silver threads forcing in and out between internal organs ,cramping,grabbing ,shifting ,remodeling...
Erupting volcanic furnace,fed by gales and consumed by fire!

Then morning came
And having landed and bounced again upwards through confusion fog
(hands fighting to make a window,rolly pollys in space... isn't that trusting?)
and having landed again in morning sun...to bathe in clear peace
and re arranged
came to a different place of pathways and blank signposts
but with a full pack
of energy on my back!

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Festival season.... hooray!!! see you there
First SUNRISE CELEBRATION 2010
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talking with obi

Obi who is my web designer and friend came for a massage yesterday and as usual had such an interesting talk after, with what has become a ritual of coffee and chocolate digestives after! He definitely opens my mind and i am left with loads of things to mull over in my mind. One of the things he did for me was to help me to closer define what my massage actually does and how it actually helps others. Bringing me closer to my focus within. I think that the text on my website is almost complete for the moment, after lots of changes, it seems to be as close as i can get it to descibe my work. I expect this to change gradually as i hopefully get deeper.
I have just about finished writing my new relaxation course to offer the public , a 6 weeks course , hopefully i will have it all refined by February when the first one will go ahead.
I will try to do my teaching english on fridays if that can be arranged.
I really enjoyed WOMAD last week, i met loads of interesting people, and am looking forward to the Gaunts House Summer Gathering on next week in Dorset,
Happy days!!!!

Sometimes its hard for me to define what I am able to offer to the world. When i was young i felt i wasn't good at anything, mum always used to say, -every ones good at something,- but i definitely was not, and i coped with that quite happily, until i did a massage course and saw that i was actually good at something!!
After all these years i had found something i could actually say i am good at this and mean it!!This is not supposed to be an ego booster, its just that i have met lots of people in my life and there are plenty of them who also has said the same thing.
For me i was at a stage in my life where i was eager to do something for the world, to be able to offer myself in an effort to do my bit in making the world a little better for me being in it.
That was a long time ago, and I have been exploring different ways of being trying to go deeper and deeper into my authentic self knowing that the clearer i am about myself ,the clearer i can be 'me' in the world- that is the real me- not the one moulded by my lovely family,school,friends and all the other influences i have encountered. All this in an effort to give a deeper meaning to my life which i have always craved .
Anyway, I really try to do this,and to find my very own beliefs and have found that the language of astrology very helpful to enable me to express my deepest self- and have been looking for a way of expressing what i am currently trying to achieve in my work, then came across Dane Rudhars writings of the houses in the horoscope, and lo and behold, there it was! and this is what it said,
...(about 4th house) "......Whether one ever reaches the kind of stability which is found at the core of one's inner being or one is content to find an at least temporary security and base of operation in a solid concrete foundation just below the ground level,the cusp of the 4th house shows the way that destiny,or God, has prepared for you...................'In Depth Psychology'- in the truest meaning of the term there one is seen at a level which he usually seeks to hide from others........it is moreover one which would fill a very great need today, for modern men and women grow ever more insecure as the ancient foundations of which civilization was build are seen as collapsing.........every effort should be made to help people reach their own centers by approaching in a new way the problem of how to find some stable basis from which they may begin to act as dynamic and creative individuals."
This last bit accurately describes what i try to do in my work and what i have to offer.